May 15.
9.20am.
Hello Ms. Lim looks like you found me down here.
Stalker Stalker Stalker. You read my notes!
But too bad, I'm gonna relocate again soon, mind looking me up again? (This time I shan't leave clues)
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Mother's Day.
11.09pm.
Mama, thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the times I forgot
Mama remember all my life
You showed me love, you sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed along the way
And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong, Dry your eyes
Cause I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, I miss you
Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed along the way
Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama
Nothing beats a mother's love.
That I've come to realise, and because of that I am learning to appreciate my mom a whole lot more. Without her, I wouldn't be around. Without her after I was born, I'd probably be a street kid back in the Philippines. Without my dear mom, I may not even have parents right now.
Mom brought me up on her own. Worked hard to single-handedly give me the things I wanted (which is alot of unnecessary things), taught me all the right manners, fought for me whenever (step)dad and I didn't get along. All that while also supporting my half siblings. She always has (and will have) that special place for me in her heart even though I was the outcome of a broken relationship with my dad.
As I type all these, tears flow, for I now realise how much my mom put in for me. All the hurt I've brought to her, all the disappointments, yet her love is so pure, so genuine. I'm gonna start being a better daughter, for that's something she deserves.
Yesterday we were out and mom came and stood beside me, she leaned her head on my shoulder, I put my arm around her. Then she whispered, " I'm gonna miss you when you're older, please come visit me often". I made a joke about visiting her too often that she'd have to turn me away because I'd be too irritating, but tears were already welling up in my eyes. I turned away so she wouldn't see, and with that I vowed to be near mom when I grow up.
She dreams of travelling after retiring, I'm gonna make that all possible for her when I start work. I'll even go travel with her every now and then! I LOVE MY MOM! No one can ever take her place in my heart, not some other mom, not even all the hot girls out there!
11.09pm.
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the times I forgot
Mama remember all my life
You showed me love, you sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed along the way
And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, yeah I miss you
Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong, Dry your eyes
Cause I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, I miss you
Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed along the way
Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama
Nothing beats a mother's love.
That I've come to realise, and because of that I am learning to appreciate my mom a whole lot more. Without her, I wouldn't be around. Without her after I was born, I'd probably be a street kid back in the Philippines. Without my dear mom, I may not even have parents right now.
Mom brought me up on her own. Worked hard to single-handedly give me the things I wanted (which is alot of unnecessary things), taught me all the right manners, fought for me whenever (step)dad and I didn't get along. All that while also supporting my half siblings. She always has (and will have) that special place for me in her heart even though I was the outcome of a broken relationship with my dad.
As I type all these, tears flow, for I now realise how much my mom put in for me. All the hurt I've brought to her, all the disappointments, yet her love is so pure, so genuine. I'm gonna start being a better daughter, for that's something she deserves.
Yesterday we were out and mom came and stood beside me, she leaned her head on my shoulder, I put my arm around her. Then she whispered, " I'm gonna miss you when you're older, please come visit me often". I made a joke about visiting her too often that she'd have to turn me away because I'd be too irritating, but tears were already welling up in my eyes. I turned away so she wouldn't see, and with that I vowed to be near mom when I grow up.
She dreams of travelling after retiring, I'm gonna make that all possible for her when I start work. I'll even go travel with her every now and then! I LOVE MY MOM! No one can ever take her place in my heart, not some other mom, not even all the hot girls out there!
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Thursday, May 10, 2007
May 10.
12.10pm.
Wrong place wrong timing.
-
Thank you for last night, if not for you the tears wouldn't have stopped rolling.
--
Still unloved, but comfortably numb.
I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Yeah totally agree with Carrie Underwood. I wanna marry her (my brother does too, but I think Carrie'll like me better), gawd I love her. I want a country girl.
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It's Friday the 11th there, exactly a year since you got my number and we started text messaging.
12.10pm.
Wrong place wrong timing.
-
Thank you for last night, if not for you the tears wouldn't have stopped rolling.
--
Still unloved, but comfortably numb.
I don't wanna' spend my life jaded
Waiting to wake up one day and find
That I've let all these years go by
Wasted
Yeah totally agree with Carrie Underwood. I wanna marry her (my brother does too, but I think Carrie'll like me better), gawd I love her. I want a country girl.
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It's Friday the 11th there, exactly a year since you got my number and we started text messaging.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
May 9.
11.31pm.
Right now,
I feel unloved.
I wrote a short note on Facebook a few days ago, I initially wanted to post it here but I guess I didn't have the guts to face up to whatever comments might come with it. I wrote in Facebook because there, I've currently only six friends. Out of the six, 2 are inactive and another 2 are all the way in Canada. So i guess I've 2 readers left, but I doubt they're readers (of my notes) at all.
geee. i'm so far away now and still all the drama never fails to get to me.
it wearing me out and i'm tired.
what if i just forgot every single one of you from there and just started a new life here?
like a rebirth or smth, like as if no one of you guys there ever existed.
i could delete everything i have that's related to singapore, all the friends, all the memories. maybe life might just get better.
I think I can honestly say that the only people who really do care about me is my church group, Skape. Though the conversations are little (and mostly only with Jena and Tami), the comments are short, but the feelings are there. Skape, and NR0629.....
I'm numb, and I'm highly capable of losing everyone else. I mean what's the difference?
Sometimes I don't even know why I try.
11.31pm.
Right now,
I feel unloved.
I wrote a short note on Facebook a few days ago, I initially wanted to post it here but I guess I didn't have the guts to face up to whatever comments might come with it. I wrote in Facebook because there, I've currently only six friends. Out of the six, 2 are inactive and another 2 are all the way in Canada. So i guess I've 2 readers left, but I doubt they're readers (of my notes) at all.
geee. i'm so far away now and still all the drama never fails to get to me.
it wearing me out and i'm tired.
what if i just forgot every single one of you from there and just started a new life here?
like a rebirth or smth, like as if no one of you guys there ever existed.
i could delete everything i have that's related to singapore, all the friends, all the memories. maybe life might just get better.
I think I can honestly say that the only people who really do care about me is my church group, Skape. Though the conversations are little (and mostly only with Jena and Tami), the comments are short, but the feelings are there. Skape, and NR0629.....
I'm numb, and I'm highly capable of losing everyone else. I mean what's the difference?
Sometimes I don't even know why I try.
May 9.
2.31pm.
Temperature's gone down to 37.7 degrees, last night it was 39.4. Mom thinks I'm allergic to the heat. I can't wait to get well and start working out, I wanna hit my 110lbs goal. 7 more pounds + lots of body fat, to lose wuiz! I wanna look anorexic!
I've class in an hour, I'm going because I don't wanna miss two chapters on blood. Gawd, I think I'm a geek. Hmmm, actually I'm going so that my lecturer won't miss me! I just hope my nose doesn't bleed.
2.31pm.
Temperature's gone down to 37.7 degrees, last night it was 39.4. Mom thinks I'm allergic to the heat. I can't wait to get well and start working out, I wanna hit my 110lbs goal. 7 more pounds + lots of body fat, to lose wuiz! I wanna look anorexic!
I've class in an hour, I'm going because I don't wanna miss two chapters on blood. Gawd, I think I'm a geek. Hmmm, actually I'm going so that my lecturer won't miss me! I just hope my nose doesn't bleed.
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
May 8.
11.14am.
The flu's gotten me and I'm in the foulest mood ever.
I shall reply tags here,
joce : saw your post and offline message, i'll call you soon and we can discuss how to tackle 'pimples', i'm in the mood for old immature cheap thrills. love!
joyanne : aawwww, don't worry about me girl. i'm doing fine and i miss you too! i'll be back soon yeah, for now you keep doing your thing *winks. heard you guys were dancing on Independence day, heh bet you'll be the first to get chosen for it. put up some vids of your dance practices soon aight? <3
s : i'm not delusioned. and that's the exact way i got to know you please, so don't call me delusioned.
maypoh : my teacher's hot ok! and so is the momma! haha actually my class is filled with mommas.
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I got a 93 for exam 2.
11.14am.
The flu's gotten me and I'm in the foulest mood ever.
I shall reply tags here,
joce : saw your post and offline message, i'll call you soon and we can discuss how to tackle 'pimples', i'm in the mood for old immature cheap thrills. love!
joyanne : aawwww, don't worry about me girl. i'm doing fine and i miss you too! i'll be back soon yeah, for now you keep doing your thing *winks. heard you guys were dancing on Independence day, heh bet you'll be the first to get chosen for it. put up some vids of your dance practices soon aight? <3
s : i'm not delusioned. and that's the exact way i got to know you please, so don't call me delusioned.
maypoh : my teacher's hot ok! and so is the momma! haha actually my class is filled with mommas.
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I got a 93 for exam 2.
Monday, May 07, 2007
May 7.
9.24pm.
I'm really exhausted right now but omg I need to gush! I think my lecturer has a crush on me! Hahah I know I used to think that she disliked me but omg I think she has a crush on me! Haha you know like I sit right in front of her table and when I'm looking down doing my work, I can feel her eyes on me. And like today I just noticed, but when she was returning our exam papers, I saw her leave my paper for last (as in my paper was in the middle but she put it right at the back and the next paper was my seatmate's but she came to the front and gave it to her) and when she handed me my paper she gave me this smile from the corner of her mouth which I can swear nobody but me saw! Omg! And thinking back, the last time I had an exam she did the same! She left my papers last and handed them to me last! Also like whenever she asks a question she'd look at me (and of course I'd always be able to give her the right answer, except once where I got the wrong answer and she raised her brow at me and smiled). Omg she has a crush on me! Don't tell me I'm delusioned cause I'm always right whenever someone is crushing on me. Man, and she's quite hot actually although she's a mom. She wears skinny jeans to school, and she twirls her hair when she's teaching!
Omg I don't hate her anymore. And I feel that the both of us have some kind of connection.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Anyway anyway, I also found out that that hot (bitchy-looking) lady from my class is married with a kid! Damn.... and I thought she was young. Heh. Class is getting interesting.....
9.24pm.
I'm really exhausted right now but omg I need to gush! I think my lecturer has a crush on me! Hahah I know I used to think that she disliked me but omg I think she has a crush on me! Haha you know like I sit right in front of her table and when I'm looking down doing my work, I can feel her eyes on me. And like today I just noticed, but when she was returning our exam papers, I saw her leave my paper for last (as in my paper was in the middle but she put it right at the back and the next paper was my seatmate's but she came to the front and gave it to her) and when she handed me my paper she gave me this smile from the corner of her mouth which I can swear nobody but me saw! Omg! And thinking back, the last time I had an exam she did the same! She left my papers last and handed them to me last! Also like whenever she asks a question she'd look at me (and of course I'd always be able to give her the right answer, except once where I got the wrong answer and she raised her brow at me and smiled). Omg she has a crush on me! Don't tell me I'm delusioned cause I'm always right whenever someone is crushing on me. Man, and she's quite hot actually although she's a mom. She wears skinny jeans to school, and she twirls her hair when she's teaching!
Omg I don't hate her anymore. And I feel that the both of us have some kind of connection.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Anyway anyway, I also found out that that hot (bitchy-looking) lady from my class is married with a kid! Damn.... and I thought she was young. Heh. Class is getting interesting.....
Sunday, May 06, 2007
May 6.
9.48pm.
I'm toast. Exam's tomorrow and I'd really love to say that I'm ready for it and that I'm gonna score well, but I can't. I've honestly dedicated the most of my weekend on my books (I spent the WHOLE of today on them) yet I'm not ready. Shit, I'm toast. I bet my classmate, Rihanna's gonna top it again. Bitch. Omg I must not let her top, she's ahead of me by two points from the last exams, I cannot let her get highest again for this! Shit, I must study. Later.
Not only that, my ability to withstand stress and overcome it, is getting worse. What happened to the 'cool' me who doesn't get stressed up so easily? Mann, I seriously snapped at everyone at home today because they were just annoying! Like can't they see that I'mhappily being a nerd? Sheesh. Maybe I should just leave my books aside, like how I always do, and head to the mall.
There's so much I wanna do now but school's taking up all my time. ARGHHHH totally regret doing nothing during the past 6 months. I hope I (somehow) find some time, I wanna....
- go hunting for more/better Singaporean food places.
- look for gay/lesbian pride shops and buy rainbow(tie dyed?) shirts.
- grow thinner x10000
-driving class bleah.
- just chill in the mall even on my own.
That's all.
I'm going back to my books now.
9.48pm.
I'm toast. Exam's tomorrow and I'd really love to say that I'm ready for it and that I'm gonna score well, but I can't. I've honestly dedicated the most of my weekend on my books (I spent the WHOLE of today on them) yet I'm not ready. Shit, I'm toast. I bet my classmate, Rihanna's gonna top it again. Bitch. Omg I must not let her top, she's ahead of me by two points from the last exams, I cannot let her get highest again for this! Shit, I must study. Later.
Not only that, my ability to withstand stress and overcome it, is getting worse. What happened to the 'cool' me who doesn't get stressed up so easily? Mann, I seriously snapped at everyone at home today because they were just annoying! Like can't they see that I'm
There's so much I wanna do now but school's taking up all my time. ARGHHHH totally regret doing nothing during the past 6 months. I hope I (somehow) find some time, I wanna....
- go hunting for more/better Singaporean food places.
- look for gay/lesbian pride shops and buy rainbow(tie dyed?) shirts.
- grow thinner x10000
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- just chill in the mall even on my own.
That's all.
I'm going back to my books now.
Saturday, May 05, 2007
Thursday, May 03, 2007
May 3.
7.03pm.
I bought a 7 buck Hollister tee today and I doubt I'm ever gonna wear it when I'm around the folks. It reads, 'Hawaiian girls grow big coconuts'. I know my mom'll throw me out of the house the minute she sees it, so yeah I'm gonna hide it among my stash of letters and pictures too.
So anyway, the other night I was lying in bed still thinking of daddy's pictures and me. About how I never had any memories when I was a child. Like how I don't remember whether there was a male parent around, or even anything I did at all when I was one or two years old. I guess like what Sarah said, its the age when we don't remember anything at all. Only pictures can tell what I've been up to those first two years.
With that, I came up with an idea. When I have a baby, I'm gonna take photographs of him/her everyday. I'm also gonna write daily journals of what my baby did. I'll do it until my baby grows up to the age of 3-4. That way my baby knows what went on with her/his life then! Damn, I'm smart (:
Btw, daddy and I look very much alike. We have the same eyes, smile and mischievious smirk. God, I hope, I wish, I WANT to meet him one day.
I'm really sorry I forgot to wake you up sweetheart,
I hope you weren't late for class.
It'll never happen again,
love you, mucho.
7.03pm.
I bought a 7 buck Hollister tee today and I doubt I'm ever gonna wear it when I'm around the folks. It reads, 'Hawaiian girls grow big coconuts'. I know my mom'll throw me out of the house the minute she sees it, so yeah I'm gonna hide it among my stash of letters and pictures too.
So anyway, the other night I was lying in bed still thinking of daddy's pictures and me. About how I never had any memories when I was a child. Like how I don't remember whether there was a male parent around, or even anything I did at all when I was one or two years old. I guess like what Sarah said, its the age when we don't remember anything at all. Only pictures can tell what I've been up to those first two years.
With that, I came up with an idea. When I have a baby, I'm gonna take photographs of him/her everyday. I'm also gonna write daily journals of what my baby did. I'll do it until my baby grows up to the age of 3-4. That way my baby knows what went on with her/his life then! Damn, I'm smart (:
Btw, daddy and I look very much alike. We have the same eyes, smile and mischievious smirk. God, I hope, I wish, I WANT to meet him one day.
I'm really sorry I forgot to wake you up sweetheart,
I hope you weren't late for class.
It'll never happen again,
love you, mucho.
May 3.
3.50pm.
This was supposed to be yesterday's post, but I arrived home at 567654323455 pm so I was too drained to come online and type an entry (no time to blog, got alot of time to post cute pics online!!).
Anyway, yesterday was......spent in the bus. A quarter of my day (6 hours) spent sitting on that hard plastic chair (hopefully friction's working and I can lose my gluteal fats) going across town and back.
Nothing interesting really, my day. Just a couple of new things like :
- My lecturer who I suspect hates me because I might look like someone she dislikes, smiled at me.
- I came out as a lesbian to my Indian friend, Rimmy.
- I am irritated with another Indian from my class whose name I cannot spell OR pronounce, because she's a show off who claims she was born in England and that she has a British accent, when in face the only accent I hear from her is her non-mistakeable Indian accent.
- I'm afraid to walk home alone at night because my street is long and there are only two streetlights, one at the beginning and one at the end;my house is exactly in the middle.
- I had a nice camwhoring session with myself, which I feel I haven't done in eons.
Okay that's about it. Its almost 4pm, I wanna go study now. I'll tell you guys about a thought that came to me while I was lying in bed the other day, later.
3.50pm.
This was supposed to be yesterday's post, but I arrived home at 567654323455 pm so I was too drained to come online and type an entry (no time to blog, got alot of time to post cute pics online!!).
Anyway, yesterday was......spent in the bus. A quarter of my day (6 hours) spent sitting on that hard plastic chair (hopefully friction's working and I can lose my gluteal fats) going across town and back.
Nothing interesting really, my day. Just a couple of new things like :
- My lecturer who I suspect hates me because I might look like someone she dislikes, smiled at me.
- I came out as a lesbian to my Indian friend, Rimmy.
- I am irritated with another Indian from my class whose name I cannot spell OR pronounce, because she's a show off who claims she was born in England and that she has a British accent, when in face the only accent I hear from her is her non-mistakeable Indian accent.
- I'm afraid to walk home alone at night because my street is long and there are only two streetlights, one at the beginning and one at the end;my house is exactly in the middle.
- I had a nice camwhoring session with myself, which I feel I haven't done in eons.
Okay that's about it. Its almost 4pm, I wanna go study now. I'll tell you guys about a thought that came to me while I was lying in bed the other day, later.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
May 1.
10.52pm.
Mayday Mayday! Another month has passed, I can't wait for December!
And what better way than to start a month happy (:
I received a package from my aunt today, like after waiting 10 years for my childhood pictures, I finally got them! Well 5% of them at least, but hey something is always better than nothing! I spent the day looking and re-looking and giggling and cooing over my super d-duper cute pictures. I know you guys'll call me thick skinned for saying this, but honestly I think I've never seen a child cuter than I was. Yeah, was (like how mom refers to), but I think there's still quite alot of it in me now (cuteness I mean).
I shall have a nice pictured (scanned pictures taken from super old un-digital cameras) entry to prove it all to you guys once I figure out how to connect the scanner to my laptop (if it even is possible that is).
Anyway, here's the biggest shock/surprise/whatever you may wanna call it. (But I pretty much expected it) My aunt included three pictures of my dad. My REAL dad! And you know what? Those three pictures are pictures that I've looked at countless of times before! O-M-G. And I never knew....... Gosh. He and I have some kinda resemblance, I think its the eyes and the smile, but I'm not sure. I gotta wait till the try to set up the scanner, and I'll get you guys to help me figure if there's a similarity between us.
Looking at those three pictures got me thinking alot about him. I wonder if he's fine right now, the thoughts kinda kept me distracted while I was at my books (still finished a chapter and my homework though!). I was even very tempted to ask mom about them, I guess neither of us are ready though cause I've no guts to ask her and likewise she's got none, to tell. I suppose the time will come, but right now I shall just look at my daddy's face everyday and smile. My aunt told me to hide the pictures by the way and I found the perfect place to keep them - the new addition to my 'happy stash' of memories! They're kept in that box which contains everything given to me by all of you guys in Singapore. All the pictures and letters and memories which I look at so frequently just to remind myself that life isn't such a bad thing afterall (how can it be bad when I've got so many of you guys as friends!)
Sucha happy day, I hope it lasts throughout the month (:
Anyway special shoutout to MS. JENALYN SORREDA!
I miss you! Why do I always not see you online! We seem to be coming at the wrong times. Or maybe you're just avoiding me! I better see you online soon girl, I miss you!
And to MS. LAI SHI QI.
I hope I see you online too and I hope you're doing fine.
I care. I honestly do.
Alot.
And to the rest,
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
/edit
I declined an invitation to go to the mall with my Indian friend and her highschool mates. I actually wanted to go, for the sake of making more friends and like, it could be a starting point you know? On second thoughts however, I suspected her high school friends were gonna turn out all Indian (I'm not a racist!!!!) so I declined. Like I have enough (traditional) Indian friends from class please! They even tried teaching me Hindi. If I'm not wrong 'hello how are you' is 'ap naam kya hei?' and 'good' is 'ah char'. HAHA OMG WTH i'm turning Indian. My classmate's gonna send me pictures of some Indian bollywood guy because I faked being interested in what they were talking about (Bollywood Superstars) omg I'm Indian now.
10.52pm.
Mayday Mayday! Another month has passed, I can't wait for December!
And what better way than to start a month happy (:
I received a package from my aunt today, like after waiting 10 years for my childhood pictures, I finally got them! Well 5% of them at least, but hey something is always better than nothing! I spent the day looking and re-looking and giggling and cooing over my super d-duper cute pictures. I know you guys'll call me thick skinned for saying this, but honestly I think I've never seen a child cuter than I was. Yeah, was (like how mom refers to), but I think there's still quite alot of it in me now (cuteness I mean).
I shall have a nice pictured (scanned pictures taken from super old un-digital cameras) entry to prove it all to you guys once I figure out how to connect the scanner to my laptop (if it even is possible that is).
Anyway, here's the biggest shock/surprise/whatever you may wanna call it. (But I pretty much expected it) My aunt included three pictures of my dad. My REAL dad! And you know what? Those three pictures are pictures that I've looked at countless of times before! O-M-G. And I never knew....... Gosh. He and I have some kinda resemblance, I think its the eyes and the smile, but I'm not sure. I gotta wait till the try to set up the scanner, and I'll get you guys to help me figure if there's a similarity between us.
Looking at those three pictures got me thinking alot about him. I wonder if he's fine right now, the thoughts kinda kept me distracted while I was at my books (still finished a chapter and my homework though!). I was even very tempted to ask mom about them, I guess neither of us are ready though cause I've no guts to ask her and likewise she's got none, to tell. I suppose the time will come, but right now I shall just look at my daddy's face everyday and smile. My aunt told me to hide the pictures by the way and I found the perfect place to keep them - the new addition to my 'happy stash' of memories! They're kept in that box which contains everything given to me by all of you guys in Singapore. All the pictures and letters and memories which I look at so frequently just to remind myself that life isn't such a bad thing afterall (how can it be bad when I've got so many of you guys as friends!)
Sucha happy day, I hope it lasts throughout the month (:
Anyway special shoutout to MS. JENALYN SORREDA!
I miss you! Why do I always not see you online! We seem to be coming at the wrong times. Or maybe you're just avoiding me! I better see you online soon girl, I miss you!
And to MS. LAI SHI QI.
I hope I see you online too and I hope you're doing fine.
I care. I honestly do.
Alot.
And to the rest,
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!
/edit
I declined an invitation to go to the mall with my Indian friend and her highschool mates. I actually wanted to go, for the sake of making more friends and like, it could be a starting point you know? On second thoughts however, I suspected her high school friends were gonna turn out all Indian (I'm not a racist!!!!) so I declined. Like I have enough (traditional) Indian friends from class please! They even tried teaching me Hindi. If I'm not wrong 'hello how are you' is 'ap naam kya hei?' and 'good' is 'ah char'. HAHA OMG WTH i'm turning Indian. My classmate's gonna send me pictures of some Indian bollywood guy because I faked being interested in what they were talking about (Bollywood Superstars) omg I'm Indian now.