"hope i dont bump into the korean/jap girl who said i was 'so sweet' in front of my mom. how embarrassing please" (facebook note aug 8)

1. She's not korean or japanese, she's from hongkong
2. She's a superb dancer

i wish all my nights were like the one i had today.
watching theatre performances (albeit the fact that it was in school) with a tiny crowd and getting up close and personal with the performers. i've got phoebe to thank for convincing me to go; i nearly almost didn't and thinking about it now, i'd be damned if i didn't go. i loved the pole-dancing part. i felt exactly like the title said; i was "bound by lust" (nyahahaha!) in the sensual way. she was stunning, although my attention was divided for i was half watching her boyfriend's facial expressions and wondering whether he was feeling sensual too or if he was not so happy about what she was doing, and her moving her body to the music and playing with her hair in that naughty manner. hmmm. i didn't think she'd recognize me but after the play and her taking pictures with her close friends, she came over and took a picture with me. i'm a fan of hers already.

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here's one thing i bet you guys didn't know.
i've always been a fan of theatre arts, music and dance. back to my days with jocelyn during the few performances i've been to, i honestly tried my best to understand and interpret the works. i hope one day i'd be able to be a good critic. oh and i want to go to broadway (:

What am I doing trying to bullshit my way through English when my teacher is a doctorate holder who graduated from an Ivy League school?

I'm going on a two week hiatus to focus on my studies on this final bend for this semester. Two weeks and everything will be over, two weeks...

i'm contemplating on skipping class on wednesday so i can meet up with the macaraeg sisters, but i don't know. hmmm should i? (its just english and gen. psychology...)

this sucks ):

I was living in ignorant bliss
Til I learned I could be more than this
And you know, in a way I owe it all to you

I thought losing your love was a blow I could never withstand
Look how far I have come without anyone holding my hand

I had to find my way
The day you broke my heart
You handed me the chance
To make a brand new start

You helped me find my way

-From the Legally Blonde Musical

Happy Thanksgiving.

dreaming with a broken heart is such a nice song even though i cannot relate to it at all right now. what's weird is that i no longer even want to fall in love now; feels as if i can thrive on my own and still be happy. the past week's been unusual and this sounds warped, but i no longer feel the longing i used to feel whenever i came into any sort of contacts with my eye candies. the feelings seem to have been neutralized and now all i feel for them, is simply platonic.

on a random note,
my bed's pretty big and there's only me sleeping on it, maybe i should downgrade to a single. yeah a single, for the single happy kid.

its thanksgiving, turkey tonight!

one more class and a day before i'm off to enjoy (doing homework and such during) thanksgiving break.

things to be done:
- 20 page research paper on STRESS (groan with me please)
- 2 page report + presentation on the mid-autumn festival
- 30 journal entries on Human Development (to be in order and numbered)
- Nutrition homework
- Read entire Asian-American Book.

all that school work plus two entire days to go downtown to shop for more sweaters/jackets + look for stuff to give Skape. also need a day to go out with the sisters who are visiting the bay (:

i'm so busy busy busyyyyyy but nevermind, holidays are in 4 weeks!!!

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i wrote about you on my essay; the two most significant people in my life. got me a perfect grade and nice comments from my lecturer. thank you - for making me stronger, for making me realize a whole lot of things in life. for all the experiences, for love, for everything. you've made me who i am today, thank you.

gonna be on hiatus for awhile, we're moving so internet connection's gonna be down for abit.
i'm so tired from all the carrying of boxes and shit, its not fair because i've got school for three days after this weekend and the rest of the family gets the whole week of due to thanksgiving.
sucks even more because i have to complete my schizo essay by monday and do a good job but i think thats impossible because i think i'm going to be busy hauling beds and sofas the whole day tomorrow. right now i'm just beat.

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there was a lesbian group of friends at the fast food place we ate at today. among them was a couple. the girl smiled at me while her girlfriend wasn't looking. lol. i'd better not have gfs like that in future.

oh shit.

On repeat mode : Won't go home without you by Maroon 5

I just witnessed mom trying to use the telephone to change the channel on the teevee. She tried to act unnoticed but my sister and I burst out laughing before she could get away with it. My mommy's growing old.

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Supposed to be writing essay on schizophrenia and john nash but nevermind, I will do it in class tomorrow.

I don't practice santeria

I aint got no crystal ball.

Well, I had a million dollars but I

I'd spend it all,

If I could find that heina and that sancho that she's found,

well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down.

What I really wanna know,

my baby, what I really want to say I can't define.

Well it's love,

that I need, oh ,

but my soul will have to,

wait till I get back find heina of my own.

Daddy's gonna love one and all.

I feel the break,

feel the break,

feel the break and I got live it out,

oh, yea huh, well I swear that I.

What I really wanna know, my baby,

what I really want to say I can't define.

fuck love make it go,

my soul will have to...

ohhh What I really wanna say,

my baby,

What I really wanna say is I've got mine.

and I'll make it, Yes, I'm comin' up.

Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him he best go run and hide.

Daddy's got a new .45.

and I won't think twice to stick that barrel straight down sancho's throat.

Believe me when I say that I got somethin for his punk ass.

What I really wanna know, my baby,

oh what I really wanna say is there's just one,

way back,

and I'll make it, yea,

but my soul will have to wait.

yea, yea, yea

Sublime : Santeria

yayyyy exam paper is done i finished it in ten minutes. i'm procastinating again even though i know i wont have time later. i have to make a lot of adjustments on my powerpoint presentation for tomorrow because group members only sent me stuff today. can't believe tomorrow is thursday already, like today was like my second day at school for the week and it is already thursday tomorrow! omg next week is thankgiving week which means its gonna fly by faster. okay okay enough typing for me, im off to relax and be happy!

ohmy, a bill from the hospital just arrived. my visit there cost me a grand total of $6000 (thats enough to pay for my fare,accomodation, and spending in singapore!) and although most of it is paid for already, i still have to pay $600. they told me i didn't have to pay a single cent. oh crappppp i already sent in my compensation form before my bill came, now how the hell am i going to pay $600, and then make a claim. i don't want to trouble the parents already. shit, i think i just saw $600 fly out of my bank account ):

omg i love myself, i finished studying and finished my PowerPoint presentation in a record time of 3 hours! I'm so gonna do well for my exam and presentation :D ( i can already hear Nicole going "you geekkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!")

she want that lovey dovey that kiss kissssssss hahaha i can't stop singing it to myself so nice to annoy the siblings with the song i don't even feel annoyed with myself. enough kiss kiss and chris brown though, its time to emo and listen to keyshia cole. i remember when i screamed i hated you but somehow deep inside still loving you i was sad and lonelyyyyyyyyy

omg okay i just annoyed myself okay byebye i'm off to sleep cause i'm going to need beauty + geeky sleep in order to do well for my exam!

i've an exam tomorrow and a class presentation on thursday. i haven't started doing anything for both. i can do well!

things to remember : do NOT bring wallet or money to school on thursday! remind nicole not to do the same and persuade her NOT to buy breakfast at Jollibee for the both of us.

it has come to a point where we spent more than 10 bucks each on breakfast and snacks every tuesday & thursday. THIS HAS TO STOP. no more foods allowed.

my friend shaved vagina sent my regards to one of my eyecandies and eyecandy gave shaved vagina her contacts. BUT shaved vagina lost the contacts and eyecandy blogged that she is patiently waiting for her eyecandy to be in contact with her. oh my, eyecandy might be thinking that her eyecandy doesn't want to contact her ):

SHAVED VAG!!!!!!

i'm this close to booking a night's stay downtown san francsico. would be nice to get away frm the 'burbs for a weekend. i've already found the perfect place with the perfect price and i have the perfect plans for both days, but should i? so tempted omg, i can't already say that this is gonna be the best days of my life in the past year!

Now I don't know how a heart beats
But I sure know how one breaks
Remember how I used to hold you
To share every breath that you'd take
How can I forget
Your every tear that I cry
I know you're coming back
You never kissed me goodbye

I'm a sucker when it comes to love songs. Maybe Someday by Bon Jovi's on repeat mode right now. The type of love song that's sad yet I can lie in the dark and smile to myself the whole period of time that it's playing. Its been love songs for the past three days now... gets me all dream-eyed. heeeeeee.

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I've got lots of research to do.
gosh i feel like such a geek, can't help smiling to myself!

i need a job. i'm having a sudden crave for materialistic goods. aside from saving up for my trip back to sg, i need to have my new phone and i decided i needed an LCD tv on my wall (for me to watch dawson's creek on). i also need some cash for six whole seasons of dawson's creek.

i will make this happen.
(now where can i go to look for a job.....)

why can't everyone just be happy ):
its not so hard.

i feel like getting all the seasons of dawsons creek now too. i don't even know what the show's about but after listening to all the lovey-dovey songs on youtube with dawsons creek clips on it, i feel like watching! another thing i could do in my roooooooom, i can already imagine myself snuggled up in bed in a dark room with layers of blankets + a big comforter watching cheesy love scenes that makes your heart skip a beat (cheesy nonetheless) and makes you smile knowing you've been through it.

i'm happy :D
new songs to add to my collection of love songs :D
lol.


i just realized how overwhelming it can turn out for me when my visitors arrive. i mean, i haven't been around people for so long it would seem like i've lived in a cave for a year! i'm quite nervous on how to act when the time comes actually. gosh this is weird. i'm excited nonetheless! like really really really excited! (and nervous).

most of my things are boxed up, few more and i'll be ready to move out.

next week's moving out week (again).

i need a day before i move out to go shopping for cds and books.
mission : make my room my haven.
i swear if i had a bathroom in my room, i never have to leave my room - quoted from my lecture mate who i talk to everyweek but who's name i do not know of.


Things to buy:


- Jason Reeves Album
- Matt White Album
- Colbie Caillat Album
- happy songs albums
- Garth Brooks Albums (heh. what's my room without a little country music?)
- Lots of psychology based books
- Lots of novels
- The Road Less Travelled by Scott Peck
- A cute lamp
- study table + a nice chair
- cute bedsheets and two more super soft pillows

with all these, i don't think i'll find a need to ever leave the house my room! (i'm kinda bummed though... the bedframe i wanted wasn't bought and i don't know what kind of bedframe dad chose for me) its gonna be another new beginning (:

a friend's gonna come visit me soooooon (:
life is sweeeeeet.

Wow it's been awhile since I dropped by here. Now that I'm here, I'm gonna (insert some random boring topic to write about) talk about my Education Plan. LOL

And so I saw the counselor today to plan my classes for the next few YEARS. Get this, in order for me to transfer to Berkeley and do my Psychology major, I have 3 more years to go here in community college. Great huh? All thanks to the endless amount of prerequisites that I have to take in order to sign up for my transferrable classes which will get me to Berkeley. With that said, I have a total of 8-9 years to go (depending on whether there's a 5-year straight MBA course I can take) before I graduate. I don't even want to think about the additional number of years I have to spend to get the other degree that I'm planning to work on.

But anyway, (digress) life is good.
Here's a few stuff I picked up from Human Development class today; we were on the topic of love and relationships in the early adulthood stage and I managed to catch a few lines from the lecture amidst the noise that Nicole and I were creating at the last row of the lecture class.

"If you expect another person to make you happy, you will be endlessly disappointed." - Scott Peck author of The Road Less Travelled.

Hmmm. Something you guys might want to take note of.
I'm off to be a nerd (so that I can become a psychiatrist by the time I'm 30....)