I'm into the Christmas spirit, I dressed up in candy cane colors today! (i look like im about to celebrate sg's national day)

The Italian Restaurant Anum and I went to was superb! And she was great company, and I didn't mind it at all that we got lost a gazillion times, it was actually fun. We're going ice-skating together after she's back from pakistan, before semester starts.

Sigh, my heart broke for Dani today. Bobby is Tila's "boo" now and I totally cried over the fact that Dani lost.

I can't say its a great show because MTV shows are crap, but I learnt something from it today.

Reminder to self: Do not attempt to go shopping alone in San Francisco on a rainy day! (Especially if you're planning to buy a lot of things!!!!)

So I thought the rain wasn't going to be a problem, and I was so so soooo wrong. I got drenched the moment I stepped out of the underpass. And its so hard trying to juggle 3 big (heavy) shopping bags while carrying an umbrella, and also trying to keep your hair prim and proper from the wind. Urgh, no wonder I'm home so early. Totally left SF at 2pm.

450 bucks from my account just flew away, and I'm not even done with the whole "christmas shopping for the family" thing. I still need to buy daddy's gift along with mom's gift part two. I'm pretty screwed cause I got my brother something that's one size smaller, I hope it fits cause it cost me quite a bit. If not, I'm just going to have to force him to lose weight. Continuing tomorrow, I'm already worried that I might wipe my whole savings account out.

Anyways! I know what my dumb sister bought for me. HAAHAHHA. I sooooo know that she got me Victoria Secrets thongs/underwears! I don't even have to wait till Christmas to know. Gosh, she really knows what to get her sister.

Anyway anyway!!!! Heh heh.... Look at this (:

Busy busy week ahead of me!

- Christmas shopping in SF for the family's gifts (was supposed to go today but I kinda overslept)
- Japantown for some tempura and udon with Lorenzo.
- "date" with Anum before she goes back to Paki.
- Phoebe needs help with something.
- House blessing on Sunday.

And I thought I was gonna be out looking for a job this holiday!

Omg I accomplished something today!!!!!!!!
I DRANK MILK!!!!!

I've decided that I'm going to start eating healthy balanced meals from today onwards. Because of that, I found myself at the grocery store alone today shopping for healthy food! I got myself low fat milk, greens, fruits, whole wheat bread, and some not so healthy things like cream cheese and sugar cookies. Along with those, I got nonfood stuff such as face moisturizer,bubble bath, aroma therapy candles and more floss. 40 bucks out of my own pocket......

And since I'm gonna have a busy week ahead of me, I'm off to soak in the tub and relax (:
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

Shin's taking the midnight flight back to Singapore then to Malaysia today. Jason's gonna be back in Singapore by Monday. Phoebe's going back to China in two weeks for two weeks. And Louise is...spending Christmas by the bay ): (ie. I'm not going anywhere)

ANYWAYS!
The International students and I went to an Egyptian Museum today! Lots of mummies - real people, kids, cats, gazelles, hair extensions?!!!

Mummified cat for all you cat lovers out there!

Real mummified man for you
Do you know that they remove brains through a person's left nostril before they mummify him/her?

I am Legend with the girls after the museum. Drats, I was expecting some action movie but it didn't turn out that way man. Good movie though. It's been awhile since I went watching movies (just this time I wasn't alone!) I'mma catch some sad romance flick next week too; time to get in touch with my emotional self before Christmas (you know, like cry inside the theatre so that I can come out smiling kinda thing?)

I feel so bloated, Udon was good.
Time to try some Pho soon!

A Shot At Love With Tila Tequila | One Shot Too Many 4/6

I'd get myself a girlfriend like Vanessa one day (:

(I'd give her lots of vodka, and I sit myself down and just watch her entertain me with her stupidity)

((she'd be nice to fight with too))


How dare she slap my darling Dani, I'd pull her hair like she pulled Brandi's during elimination! Fucking cow bitch Vanessa (oops).

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I think I screwed my essays for English and History today. Not so affected (yet) though, cause it's the freaking holidays and I don't have to go to school for six weeeeeeeks! (:

I used to keep this notebook where I wrote everything down. In it held all my emotions, all my thoughts, my reasons and decisions. I wrote and kept it in hopes of developing it into a book one day.

I went looking for it today hoping I could flip through it and reflect on the things I wrote, for abit. I went looking for it because it could help me further reassure myself of the things I've done and my motives behind it. Alas, it couldn't be found anywhere at home. I searched everywhere, digged through everything I packed from the old house - none. Then I remember what I did to that book, I threw it away at school just a few months back. The only copy of my memories that I could physically show people, gone. My ego's already started its most efficient defense mechanism, everything's already getting repressed.

But it's all for the better of course.
This is my final visit to that part of my preconscious mind, the final visit to that place in my heart. I just hope that you finally truly understand why I left, my love.

7th.

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Closure.

The main reason I left was the very reason why you were seeking apology from me. I left because I've said a lot of hurtful stuff, done a lot of hurtful things, and I didn't want you to get anymore of that knowing that a lot more would come if I stayed.

From the deepest places in my heart, I'm sorry.

I am so disgusted with her lack of professionalism and her rudeness. For not being bothered to reply to my very sincerely written email(s) and for going ahead with her decision to deduct more points from me on my final exams when she already decided to not grant me points for the particular assignment. It's already been two days since her initial email to us (which mind you, was coated to the top with sarcasm) and I'm pretty sure she's checked her email a hundred times since I replied to her. At least the decency to reply me with an "Oh I'm sorry but I've made up my mind and I'm sticking to my decision," but no, she cares no shit for her student and she's leaving me to suffer in guilt (yeah right, what's fucking there to be guilty for) so that I'd flunk my finals and fail her class as well.

Been majorly pissed all day I finished my two hour paper in fifteen minutes and bolted out of the classroom so that I can have time to myself to vent out (and complain to mommy. hahahah i mean which cheater will go to her mom and tell her that her teacher is accusing her of cheating?). Fuck, wait till thursday comes I'm gonna get her after class and play the bitch (:
For now, I'm going to study my ass out. She can deduct all she wants, I'm still going to get my A one way or another.

I slept on the other half of the bed last night for the first time. Honestly, it was different from other nights, I was feeling really mellow. The fever working on me? I don't think so.

Its 1.30 in the morning, I have a paper tomorrow, I'm not done studying for it, and I have 2 other papers that I have yet to start on (English doesn't count). I'm not about ready to sleep yet. You might be wondering, "oh.. there goes louise burning the midnight oil, cramming, etc." Heh. You're wrong, Louise doesn't do midnight oil burning (whatever that is... I burnt aromatherapy candles today if that counts.) What could be more important than sleep before the finals?

Tila Tequila is! (imitates Tila's kiddy lil flirtatious voice)
You know how I hate leaving something aside without completing it (studying does not count!). I only managed up to Episode 8 last night and so I've one more episode to go today plus exclusive web videos! Gosh, just wish that Dani the cutesy futch wins! (I'm so in love with her smile I'd turn femme for her!!) Uhhhhh, okay nevermind. Anyways, I'm all snuggled up in bed with my four giant pillows and my really soft comforter (anyone wanna join me? *winks) and all ready for Tilaaaaaa.

WISH ME LUCK FOR MY PAPERS (:

I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out

and my highly possible 4.0gpa is s0 out of reach now all because of a professor who thinks that my group and I cheated on the extra credit assignment. she gave me a 10/40 for that particular homework and I honestly am very unhappy with that decision of hers because first of all, i wasn't cheating (like why the fuck do i need to cheat to get good grades?), and second of all i am currently top in class and giving me that grade and others the full grade is going to make them catch up with me (damn, i thought i had a good lead ahead of everyone else, now i'll only be ahead by a mere 5-10pts when its was 40 the previous time), and thirdly, i'd have to work harder and get higher grades than what i actually needed in order to get my A for this class.

i've bombarded her mailbox last night and i've yet to get a reply from her. however, knowing the bitch that she is, i doubt i'll ever get a reply. in which case, if the rest of the accused are willing to, we are going to pay the dean a visit on this final week of the semester to seek justice.

-

I'm going to an Egyptian Museum on Saturday with the international students and I'm hoping C would go! I was lucky last Thursday cause she served me at the cashier again like she did last semester when she said I was "so sweet" in from of my mother. This time we chatted for abit cause there wasn't anyone behind me, and it was all good (:

i know i'm supposed to be studying right now, too bad the flu came for a visit and its deciding to stay for a bit. the temperature's been fluctuating for the past few and i'm just too comfortable to get out of bed. studying's out of the picture too cause right now, it's tila tequilaaaaaa. i've been missing out the whole time now and i don't wanna delay watching 16 guys and 16 lesbians fight over 1 bisexual babe. i guess studying's just gotta wait till later.

-

i think i did it again.
i've got two on my back and i honestly don't want this situation.
what's worse, one's a guy and both of them are honestly good friends. i'm already starting to feel awkward. shit.

After class yesterday, I just had the urge to do a lil reminiscing. I had a good time to myself, smiling while looking through everything.

I'm so thankful to have met everyone I know in Singapore. For all the happy times, for all the support I get even though I'm 8000 miles away, for the unwavering love. I've got all of you to thank. Without you guys, I wouldn't be as strong as I am now. Thank you.

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I live by the train tracks and today I saw two long trains. Its weird because I never catch it when I'm out or when I'm walking by the tracks to get to the bus stop. I hear it a lot though (like 15 times a day?) and it gets really annoying when I'm trying to sleep and I hear the stupid train horns for 10 minutes. I get annoyed by the garage door too, its directly under my window -_-

FATTY ME IS BACK! (i swear its the hair)

look at those tired eyes

ONE PAPER DOWN FOUR MORE TO GO!

HAHAHAHA i only got an effing 37/50 for Human D. that's not even a bloody C. HAHAHAHA but overall its still A, omg i love myself!

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my brother made his school basketball team,
he's been wanting me to go watch him play this week so i did (today)!
his school mates are so cute and tiny and funny!!

my bro's friend : hey michael, (eyes wide open) is that your brother, is that your brother!!
my bro : (glances at me and glances away and then giggles) uhhhhh
my bro's friend : is that your brother michael!
my bro: uhhh she's my sister
my bro's friend : really? (runs to another friend) that's michael's SISTER can you believe it?!!
my bro's friend : (rushing back to michael with eyes wide open again) how old is SHE?
me : i'm eighteen (smiles)
my bro's friend : you're EIGHTEEN?!!! you look TWELVE to me! (rushes off again to the same friend) she's 18 can you believe that?! she looks 12!!!


hahahahah kids.

one more,

michael : mom you should get louise into a better school, her school is not good.
mom : why not?
michael : because the people there don't like smart people
mom : how would you know that?
michael : (points at me) she has no friends.

my brother's so thoughtful (sometimes only). and i'm drained so i'm off to bed!

MY HOUSE IS FULL OF MIRRORS

(and i'm such a narcissist)

what a long (and very very fulfilling) day!
i was a walking zombie at 8am today nicole darling had to buy me coffee to keep me awake during nutrition. all thanks to that stupid human development paper which is finally OVER!!!! (results are gonna be out later but hell no am i checking) i told myself i was gonna study during the break today, but the five of us just had to drive down to jack in the box to have humongous breakfasts! the perfect thing to do on the last day of human development class. i'm gonna miss those fools.





OH HAAHAA IM SUCH A NERD, I DID SO BAD FOR NUTRITION BUT I CHECKED TODAY AND IM NUMBER ONE IN CLASS. NYAHAHHAHAHA.





last class of asian-american history today too. i'm gonna miss my lecturer, he's the best! (heehee he used to be a hippie who smoked lots of pot) oh and slim too i suppose.

so cuteeeeeeee!

Ey shawty, shawty, shawty wadsyaname is
wadsyaname is
wadsyaname

such a soft-spoken sweet girl with an undoubtly innocent soul,
and dayummmmmm she's majoring in criminal law.
now that's what i call hot (:
glad i got to talk to her about other stuff aside from the normal pair work that we do in class.


okay i should be off to bed. 3hrs of sleep and a major paper tomorrow!

Forgiveness

is NOT: condoning, forgetting, hanging on, or something you do for someone else.
IS: letting go, moving on, a process of healing, inner peace.

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Taking a break from Pyschology next semester, I signed up for Critical Thinking, Math, Chem, and Bio. Tell me I've made the right decision please cause i've registered and dropped classes like three times already! Don't know if its gonna be good or bad, but I signed up for Friday night classes and Saturday morning classes too. I was thinking of Theatre studies or Photography for Spring, but I think I'll get those in the fall (: Fall seems to be a better time to be out watching plays and its also a nicer time to be out taking pictures. Heh.

STRESSED.

(use it to your advantage louise)

i'm surrounded by people in the library and there's this disgusting couple right across me who are touching each other and on the verge of having sex. the guy's mouth can't seem to behave itself cause one minute i get distracted by them and i look i see him nibbling and sucking on the girls fingers, the next time i look he's trying to suck the girl's tits through her shirt. urghhh i'm trying to block the view with the computer screen right now. who knows what i may see next?! i might find them on the floor in the middle of everyone, doing it! ewwwwwww?

anyways, 30 minutes till my presentation.
gonna go impromptu without slides, handouts, nada....

Finally done with my outline!
I better get an A for this stupid paper because I honestly put in too much time on it. My last one on John Nash and schizophrenia was only good enough for an A- and I'm scared as hell that everything will not add up to an A.

so much for "how warped life is".

-

procrastination bites, i'm totally screwing myself.
(talk about "procrastination is like masturbation, you're only screwing yourself.")

i don't understand how i'm done with my research paper but i can't write my outline from it. why are outlines needed anyway? afterall she's still going to read my final piece. (i think this is what its like when you have an Ivy League graduate trying to teach a Community College student) and i happily went to sign up for another one of her english classes next semester.


hmmmm screwing yourself isn't all that bad isn't?
right?

haha jk again.
off to bullshit my outline now!

Thanks for paying me a visit Joy Anne and Jessica! Wait for me in LA, I'll get there somehow and we'll go conquer magic mountain (:

it is a fact that couples as old as 80 are still sexually active. although they're not "swinging on the chandeliers," they still engage in regular sex.

"if my husband and i don't do it every week, we'll end up feeling so crappy during the weekend" (80 year old woman we interviewed in class)

reason why they still have sex?
to feel love, to let their emotions unfold in the form of touch. to cuddle and whisper sweet nothings to each other despite their lacking of teeth.

i believe this is the only time people are telling the truth when they say that they have sex to strenghten their relationships. sex should be banned for ages up to 60, after that they can "become one" all they want. and there's even no need to worry about erectile problems; viagra'll solve the problem!

heh, i'm joking.

Let me add some color to my page today! Must apologize for the lack of graphics.

I'm a fan of hers now!

The one who's always mistaken to be my sister.

Tell me I grew slimmer!!!!

Okay, I'm still fat ):

Mamee monster!

My stupid bestfriend read my mind and sent me mamee monster, pocky sticks, ba kua, and whatchamacallit? oh, bin bin crackers! LOL.

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i've done so much change to my life these few months.
family ties are so much stronger,
my friends are still always there for me despite the distance,
school's great and my goals are clear.
i can listen to myself and be reassured that i'm doing the right thing.
and there isn't a day where i go to bed with a bad mood.

ask me if i'm happy, what do you think?

it really doesn't take much to be happy.

"hope i dont bump into the korean/jap girl who said i was 'so sweet' in front of my mom. how embarrassing please" (facebook note aug 8)

1. She's not korean or japanese, she's from hongkong
2. She's a superb dancer

i wish all my nights were like the one i had today.
watching theatre performances (albeit the fact that it was in school) with a tiny crowd and getting up close and personal with the performers. i've got phoebe to thank for convincing me to go; i nearly almost didn't and thinking about it now, i'd be damned if i didn't go. i loved the pole-dancing part. i felt exactly like the title said; i was "bound by lust" (nyahahaha!) in the sensual way. she was stunning, although my attention was divided for i was half watching her boyfriend's facial expressions and wondering whether he was feeling sensual too or if he was not so happy about what she was doing, and her moving her body to the music and playing with her hair in that naughty manner. hmmm. i didn't think she'd recognize me but after the play and her taking pictures with her close friends, she came over and took a picture with me. i'm a fan of hers already.

-
here's one thing i bet you guys didn't know.
i've always been a fan of theatre arts, music and dance. back to my days with jocelyn during the few performances i've been to, i honestly tried my best to understand and interpret the works. i hope one day i'd be able to be a good critic. oh and i want to go to broadway (:

What am I doing trying to bullshit my way through English when my teacher is a doctorate holder who graduated from an Ivy League school?

I'm going on a two week hiatus to focus on my studies on this final bend for this semester. Two weeks and everything will be over, two weeks...

i'm contemplating on skipping class on wednesday so i can meet up with the macaraeg sisters, but i don't know. hmmm should i? (its just english and gen. psychology...)

this sucks ):

I was living in ignorant bliss
Til I learned I could be more than this
And you know, in a way I owe it all to you

I thought losing your love was a blow I could never withstand
Look how far I have come without anyone holding my hand

I had to find my way
The day you broke my heart
You handed me the chance
To make a brand new start

You helped me find my way

-From the Legally Blonde Musical

Happy Thanksgiving.

dreaming with a broken heart is such a nice song even though i cannot relate to it at all right now. what's weird is that i no longer even want to fall in love now; feels as if i can thrive on my own and still be happy. the past week's been unusual and this sounds warped, but i no longer feel the longing i used to feel whenever i came into any sort of contacts with my eye candies. the feelings seem to have been neutralized and now all i feel for them, is simply platonic.

on a random note,
my bed's pretty big and there's only me sleeping on it, maybe i should downgrade to a single. yeah a single, for the single happy kid.

its thanksgiving, turkey tonight!

one more class and a day before i'm off to enjoy (doing homework and such during) thanksgiving break.

things to be done:
- 20 page research paper on STRESS (groan with me please)
- 2 page report + presentation on the mid-autumn festival
- 30 journal entries on Human Development (to be in order and numbered)
- Nutrition homework
- Read entire Asian-American Book.

all that school work plus two entire days to go downtown to shop for more sweaters/jackets + look for stuff to give Skape. also need a day to go out with the sisters who are visiting the bay (:

i'm so busy busy busyyyyyy but nevermind, holidays are in 4 weeks!!!

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i wrote about you on my essay; the two most significant people in my life. got me a perfect grade and nice comments from my lecturer. thank you - for making me stronger, for making me realize a whole lot of things in life. for all the experiences, for love, for everything. you've made me who i am today, thank you.

gonna be on hiatus for awhile, we're moving so internet connection's gonna be down for abit.
i'm so tired from all the carrying of boxes and shit, its not fair because i've got school for three days after this weekend and the rest of the family gets the whole week of due to thanksgiving.
sucks even more because i have to complete my schizo essay by monday and do a good job but i think thats impossible because i think i'm going to be busy hauling beds and sofas the whole day tomorrow. right now i'm just beat.

-

there was a lesbian group of friends at the fast food place we ate at today. among them was a couple. the girl smiled at me while her girlfriend wasn't looking. lol. i'd better not have gfs like that in future.

oh shit.

On repeat mode : Won't go home without you by Maroon 5

I just witnessed mom trying to use the telephone to change the channel on the teevee. She tried to act unnoticed but my sister and I burst out laughing before she could get away with it. My mommy's growing old.

-

Supposed to be writing essay on schizophrenia and john nash but nevermind, I will do it in class tomorrow.

I don't practice santeria

I aint got no crystal ball.

Well, I had a million dollars but I

I'd spend it all,

If I could find that heina and that sancho that she's found,

well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down.

What I really wanna know,

my baby, what I really want to say I can't define.

Well it's love,

that I need, oh ,

but my soul will have to,

wait till I get back find heina of my own.

Daddy's gonna love one and all.

I feel the break,

feel the break,

feel the break and I got live it out,

oh, yea huh, well I swear that I.

What I really wanna know, my baby,

what I really want to say I can't define.

fuck love make it go,

my soul will have to...

ohhh What I really wanna say,

my baby,

What I really wanna say is I've got mine.

and I'll make it, Yes, I'm comin' up.

Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him he best go run and hide.

Daddy's got a new .45.

and I won't think twice to stick that barrel straight down sancho's throat.

Believe me when I say that I got somethin for his punk ass.

What I really wanna know, my baby,

oh what I really wanna say is there's just one,

way back,

and I'll make it, yea,

but my soul will have to wait.

yea, yea, yea

Sublime : Santeria

yayyyy exam paper is done i finished it in ten minutes. i'm procastinating again even though i know i wont have time later. i have to make a lot of adjustments on my powerpoint presentation for tomorrow because group members only sent me stuff today. can't believe tomorrow is thursday already, like today was like my second day at school for the week and it is already thursday tomorrow! omg next week is thankgiving week which means its gonna fly by faster. okay okay enough typing for me, im off to relax and be happy!

ohmy, a bill from the hospital just arrived. my visit there cost me a grand total of $6000 (thats enough to pay for my fare,accomodation, and spending in singapore!) and although most of it is paid for already, i still have to pay $600. they told me i didn't have to pay a single cent. oh crappppp i already sent in my compensation form before my bill came, now how the hell am i going to pay $600, and then make a claim. i don't want to trouble the parents already. shit, i think i just saw $600 fly out of my bank account ):

omg i love myself, i finished studying and finished my PowerPoint presentation in a record time of 3 hours! I'm so gonna do well for my exam and presentation :D ( i can already hear Nicole going "you geekkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!")

she want that lovey dovey that kiss kissssssss hahaha i can't stop singing it to myself so nice to annoy the siblings with the song i don't even feel annoyed with myself. enough kiss kiss and chris brown though, its time to emo and listen to keyshia cole. i remember when i screamed i hated you but somehow deep inside still loving you i was sad and lonelyyyyyyyyy

omg okay i just annoyed myself okay byebye i'm off to sleep cause i'm going to need beauty + geeky sleep in order to do well for my exam!

i've an exam tomorrow and a class presentation on thursday. i haven't started doing anything for both. i can do well!

things to remember : do NOT bring wallet or money to school on thursday! remind nicole not to do the same and persuade her NOT to buy breakfast at Jollibee for the both of us.

it has come to a point where we spent more than 10 bucks each on breakfast and snacks every tuesday & thursday. THIS HAS TO STOP. no more foods allowed.

my friend shaved vagina sent my regards to one of my eyecandies and eyecandy gave shaved vagina her contacts. BUT shaved vagina lost the contacts and eyecandy blogged that she is patiently waiting for her eyecandy to be in contact with her. oh my, eyecandy might be thinking that her eyecandy doesn't want to contact her ):

SHAVED VAG!!!!!!

i'm this close to booking a night's stay downtown san francsico. would be nice to get away frm the 'burbs for a weekend. i've already found the perfect place with the perfect price and i have the perfect plans for both days, but should i? so tempted omg, i can't already say that this is gonna be the best days of my life in the past year!

Now I don't know how a heart beats
But I sure know how one breaks
Remember how I used to hold you
To share every breath that you'd take
How can I forget
Your every tear that I cry
I know you're coming back
You never kissed me goodbye

I'm a sucker when it comes to love songs. Maybe Someday by Bon Jovi's on repeat mode right now. The type of love song that's sad yet I can lie in the dark and smile to myself the whole period of time that it's playing. Its been love songs for the past three days now... gets me all dream-eyed. heeeeeee.

-

I've got lots of research to do.
gosh i feel like such a geek, can't help smiling to myself!

i need a job. i'm having a sudden crave for materialistic goods. aside from saving up for my trip back to sg, i need to have my new phone and i decided i needed an LCD tv on my wall (for me to watch dawson's creek on). i also need some cash for six whole seasons of dawson's creek.

i will make this happen.
(now where can i go to look for a job.....)

why can't everyone just be happy ):
its not so hard.

i feel like getting all the seasons of dawsons creek now too. i don't even know what the show's about but after listening to all the lovey-dovey songs on youtube with dawsons creek clips on it, i feel like watching! another thing i could do in my roooooooom, i can already imagine myself snuggled up in bed in a dark room with layers of blankets + a big comforter watching cheesy love scenes that makes your heart skip a beat (cheesy nonetheless) and makes you smile knowing you've been through it.

i'm happy :D
new songs to add to my collection of love songs :D
lol.


i just realized how overwhelming it can turn out for me when my visitors arrive. i mean, i haven't been around people for so long it would seem like i've lived in a cave for a year! i'm quite nervous on how to act when the time comes actually. gosh this is weird. i'm excited nonetheless! like really really really excited! (and nervous).

most of my things are boxed up, few more and i'll be ready to move out.

next week's moving out week (again).

i need a day before i move out to go shopping for cds and books.
mission : make my room my haven.
i swear if i had a bathroom in my room, i never have to leave my room - quoted from my lecture mate who i talk to everyweek but who's name i do not know of.


Things to buy:


- Jason Reeves Album
- Matt White Album
- Colbie Caillat Album
- happy songs albums
- Garth Brooks Albums (heh. what's my room without a little country music?)
- Lots of psychology based books
- Lots of novels
- The Road Less Travelled by Scott Peck
- A cute lamp
- study table + a nice chair
- cute bedsheets and two more super soft pillows

with all these, i don't think i'll find a need to ever leave the house my room! (i'm kinda bummed though... the bedframe i wanted wasn't bought and i don't know what kind of bedframe dad chose for me) its gonna be another new beginning (:

a friend's gonna come visit me soooooon (:
life is sweeeeeet.

Wow it's been awhile since I dropped by here. Now that I'm here, I'm gonna (insert some random boring topic to write about) talk about my Education Plan. LOL

And so I saw the counselor today to plan my classes for the next few YEARS. Get this, in order for me to transfer to Berkeley and do my Psychology major, I have 3 more years to go here in community college. Great huh? All thanks to the endless amount of prerequisites that I have to take in order to sign up for my transferrable classes which will get me to Berkeley. With that said, I have a total of 8-9 years to go (depending on whether there's a 5-year straight MBA course I can take) before I graduate. I don't even want to think about the additional number of years I have to spend to get the other degree that I'm planning to work on.

But anyway, (digress) life is good.
Here's a few stuff I picked up from Human Development class today; we were on the topic of love and relationships in the early adulthood stage and I managed to catch a few lines from the lecture amidst the noise that Nicole and I were creating at the last row of the lecture class.

"If you expect another person to make you happy, you will be endlessly disappointed." - Scott Peck author of The Road Less Travelled.

Hmmm. Something you guys might want to take note of.
I'm off to be a nerd (so that I can become a psychiatrist by the time I'm 30....)

there's a new cutie in school, and i'm gonna blog about her and other things soon! (shoot me, im so lazy)

i gave her chocolate today (:

not gonna be online so much anymore, i've got dreams to chase!

-San Francisco was really nice, I can't wait to move there.
-Chinatown was packed with chinese peeps and gay/lesbian couples.
-I got reminded of a certain Chinatown trip in a certain country.
-Ate at Sam Wo's the best chinese place, with Lorenzo.
-Bought 30 bucks worth of mooncakes for my sister.
-Gained weight eating random foods
-Didnt wanna go shopping for clothes because stomach was popping out.
-Really really nice San Francisco, I WANT TO MOVE OUT AND BECOME A BUM IN UNION SQUARE ALREADY.
-Missed the feeling of going out with someone special.
-Talked with two different groups of (old)people who I suspected were Singaporeans, and I was right both times!
-Speeded on the highway :D


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I let you drive right by
I didn't realize I wanted you 'til you were gone.
I wasted too much time
I learnt that love keeps moving on.
But you're already gone.

Summer ended yesterday, fall's here and my path is laid. Psychology here I come.


imgonnamissnursing.

I spent the day at school pushing a baby stroller around and taking care of Nicole's sweet thing, Jeremiah! It was baby day for human development and we had like twenty babies in class! Jeremiah's bloody adorable and he's such a calm and friendly baby. I want one too! I'm so glad its Friday tomorrow, week four of school is coming to an end! Week five is coming, so are the midterm exams.

Don't know if I should go drinking with Alex tomorrow, I already rejected his invitation last Wednesday. I can't afford to get a hangover because Saturday I'm off to Chinatown with Lorenzo and friends. We're gonna go observe and interview people about the Moon Festival. I can't wait! (Actually I just wanna go up to San Francisco :D)

I lost my wallet at school today. I ended up walking down to the police post in campus and getting to know the campus security peeps. Hate myself, I lost 75bucks, my two debit cards, my IDs (new ones and old ones from Singapore), house key, and a few memories. Sigh. I hope whoever took/found my wallet, returns my wallet somehow. Let them take the stupid 75 dollars, just let me have the remaining content back.

Oh, next entry I'll show you guys what Nicole and I learn in class (:

Sarah Cooper made us write about the most intelligent person we knew today. Which made me realise that the most intelligent person I knew also turned out to be one of more stupid people I know. I didn't think she'd collect the paper and so I wrote all the reasons why I thought that person was the most intelligent to me. I wrote so much, all the smallest reasons why I thought the person was smart that only I would understand. I wrote cause I thought I'd be able to keep it and look at what I wrote someday in future, now I have to share with my teacher what I define as intelligent.

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And if you could read my heart
Then you'd know without exception
It was all with the best of intentions

if my memory hasn't failed me, i was at sentosa exactly a year ago.

okay, i wish my memory fails soon. i have psychology tomorrow, i get to see Sarah my teacher, who says that placebos are really helpful if you believe in them. Okay, i'm gonna use a placebo on myself, i'm gonna think that my memory has failed me, and i'm gonna believe that it has. my memory is going to fail me sooooon :D

I never thought that telling the truth would cause such a mess

And I never cared for someone so damn much they could care less

So it's seems we can't fix this situation.

Now i know I had felt the reason to leave you

The best way
To make it through
With hearts and wrists intact
Is to realize
Two out of three ain't bad

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i'm gonna bring a piece of my heart to school tomorrow. maybe talking about it and telling its story to someone else will help me put it back to where it originally was.

my bus decided to reach the bus stop a minute earlier than me today so i walked to school. i was walking on the pavement with my shades on (even when there was no sun) and the wind blowing on my hair,when i heard some pretty loud honking. it got me turning to the streets and what i saw made me laugh. damned friend of mine, lorenzo stopped at the intersection cause he spotted me and he was honking at me and the couple of cars behind him were all honking at him cause like the traffic lights were green. funny guy, im'ma get him tomorrow cause he happened to spot me while i'm looking like a stupid ugly bitch (who strangely resembles a sick gay boy) strutting my fat ass down the road.

i found myself a girl-watching mate too! we're gonna be hanging around school together watching girls and pointing out what's wrong (or not) with the every single female who walks by us. we did it today! i love him man.

strange how the people i'm close with down here are all MALE.

9/11 went by pretty good, i hope no atomic bomb is set off tomorrow.

i'll save my somewhat emo entry for a rainy day; right now, i'm off to right some hella tight essays for ms. maskatia.

gawd i really need to gush (yeah, whats new right wuiz?) but its currently too early for any singaporeans to be online and i'm still in school so i shall gush here. omg i wish i was gushing or actually saying/typing this instead of writing here cause i think i need someone who can reply to me while i gush. omg omg omg. (okay anticlimax) today's been a rollercoaster ride (kinda) with peaks and drops and blah blah blah but anyways i need to gush!!! omg i found monroe girl on myspace and omg i'm sucha genius and i sound so bimbotic now omg i'm such a bimbotic genius. okay sorry im just really, okay maybe not really but i am quite excited i think i can forget about typing properly in proper sentences cause yeah omg i found monroe girl on myspace! i found her cause i got her name right this time cause i peeked into the class attendance and got her fullname. and i love myspace cause the first person that turned up on the search engine was her. omg i can't believe it. what more omg omg omg omg!!! her orientation status is unsure omg that made me smile hecka man omg do you know what that means? means that she's not actually sure whether she's straight or not. you know what that means for me or not? omg, now i'm lost for words. i'm sorry this is sucha bad entry, but i just had to gush but then again all my entries are bad so i actually dont really care. i should be hating myself now too because like i said, i am gushing, but i am not supposed to, because i'm supposed to not be interested in anyone. am i? okay i actually don't know but omg. (speechless) ......................

I'm back from camp!! (again)

Dead Momo and mini Momo. ( They got dehydrated.)

Deers going down for a drink
Stupid kids scared them away

This boy came right in front of me so I asked him to smile.

That's life. I want a retirement house with a view like that. (And a horse)

Summer's ending, no more camps till next year ):

Out of your many flames, out of the many people, why'd it have to be me you chose to unload all your dirty secrets to?

Right, maybe out of the many people, I was the only stupid vulnerable girl who fell too easily for you.


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Gosh, I'm actually quite pissed with someone who isn't a member of the family (they don't count, they piss me all the time). Been awhile, I'm pretty overwhelmed with myself.

Anjelah Johnson: Nail Salon

When boredom takes over...

Mom's such a sweetheart today ( so unlike other days), she bought me a whole dozen of Krispy Kreme donuts just because I wanted them. An hour hasn't gone past and half of the donuts are already on their way to being digested by my stomach :D Thanks God there isn't nutrition class tomorrow, stupid lecturer would grill me on how I should eat only one of that and that it contains trans fat and blah blah blah... oh did you know that avocadoes are fat? or that olives are made out of water and fat only? I hate nutrition class ):

Monroe girl's name is Chantel ( I may have spelt that wrong) and she slept in class the whole time today. What a turn off. She went out for a smoke break too, ughhh I've had enough of smoking girls. She's not gonna be an option for me. She still looks hella good though. She's filipino too. Hmmm....

I've no class tomorrow because the teacher cancelled class. She gave hecka homework though, plus I've two quizzes to study for. But the parents ( I dont know wth is wrong with them) decided to go camping ONE more time. Bleah, as much as I love camping, I've got quizzes to study for! I'm dead, I can say goodbye to the thought of my 4.0GPA.

Two weeks into the semester and finally I've found someone who's of my 'standard'. Not that I'm looking ( remember my long term relationship with school?) or anything but ever since school started, I've seen hundreds of students walk by me yet everyone of them looked nothing out of the ordinary. Boring, no wonder I dreaded school.

Things are starting to change though, this someone who's of my 'standard' is currently in Asian-American class with me. Lets call her 'the brown-eyed girl with the beautiful monroe piercing'. Okay maybe just the eye candy. So yeah, currently we're not in talking terms ( but I assure you that will change) because she's in the (super) cool group and I'm the self-proclaimed nerd (and I'm living up to my name). Not too much on her on this entry.... we'll see how things turn out.

So yeah, I've an eyecandy to look forward seeing around school. I've also a pretty close buddy from English and General Psych, who I can click well with. Now with those two reasons, plus the thought of my teachers knowing that I'm smart (4/5 of my teachers at least), I'm looking forward to school!

Oh yah, I'm even thinking of doing a double major in school. Gonna add to my list of things to achieve. So yes people, that's the update of my life in case you haven't been in on the going ons of my life.

Omg I love my sister so much she gave my brother and I 40 gold each, and she's left with 21 for herself. Omg like 40 gold!!! That's even more than the highest amount of gold I've ever had. I'm a happy girl, whoever said I was hard to please?

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During human development today, we watched a video of a live birth. The video made this 'gangsta' guy sitting behind me squirm and cover his eyes please! He had every reason to do so though, I mean like the vagina was hecka hairy and fat ( I alone would have died at the sight of that) and not forgetting the the sight of the ball of hair coming out the enormous hole along with hecka yellowish fluid (pus??). Ughhhh, thank God I didn't grow up having silly thoughts of becoming a midwife and having my hands laid out in front of hairy vaginas anticipating the birth of babies. I think the guy behind me's gonna have second thoughts of having sex with his girlfriend already. Oh yah, did I mention the HOLE was BIGGGGGGGGGG???? (*coughLOOSEcough*)

The library's pretty fun when I'm alone. I think being a nerd is the new black.

Mom is such a motivation to school. Not. She's whining cause she has to send me to school at 7 tomorrow for my 8am class. I'm not even complaining, but after she whined at me, I think I'm gonna start my weekly whining/grumbling sessions about school. For God's sake, I wake up an hour earlier than her!

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Omg hot aussie babe just sent me a message and a friend request down at myspace, asking to have a 'nice decent lesbian chat'. After looking through her profile, I think I should add the 'despo' to the 'nice decent lesbian chat'. Can't be bothered with such girls, or girls alone to be frank. I'm tired of people, of love, of anything that'll interfere with my peaceful and happy life. I'm attached anyways, I've a long term relationship with my studies; two-timing NOT allowed.

Two shades darker, Five pounds heavier, and dreading school tomorrow. I'm back. Camp was paradise ( how can it not be when you sleep on air mattresses and order tons of pizza for lunch?). I wish we could have stayed a little longer.

No pictures for now, my camera got busted cause my brother soaked it in the water when we went after a crawdad (that eventually bit him pretty hard). Four years with that camera, guess its telling me to get a new one. Too bad for the pictures though.

An idea just struck me!
I'm gonna install Warcraft on the school computers at the Hyman Hall! Omg, I think I'm smart. I can say goodbye to the boring hours spent in school during three hour breaks in between classes. I can play all I want and nobody gets to shoo me off the computer! Omg, why didn't I think of this earlier? I'm hella smart.

Hyman Hall sounds so....wrong. Especially when my friend from mainland China pronounces it in her mainland chinese accent. Hymen Hall........

I like this time of the day, lotsa ideas coming into mind. I should try working on my essays only at this time of the day. That way I wouldn't have to squeeze my brain dry for ideas and bullshit to write on my paper. It'll just flow naturally ( the bullcrap ideas I mean....)

First week of college is over, I'm grateful Monday's a holiday. The essays and research papers are piling up but I shan't worry too much. For now, I'm off to pack a weeked bag and spend the next three days swimming in the river and lying on the bumboat (and who can forget the smores by the bonfire?)

Twice this week, I've been told that I looked like a character from an anime comic book.

I do not look like a comic book character.
/pouts