On an entirely different note, I think my idea of moving to australia is becoming more and more entiscing as the days go by. I've even mentioned it to quite a lot of people already and I've been looking into universities over in Sydney and Perth. Looks like I need to do some uprooting and relocating again in the coming future.

I have a perfect picture in my head of how I'm going to spend my last 10 weeks in college. Let's hope I paint that picture accurately.

I hate careless drivers who rear end people.

I keep telling myself that it was a minor accident, but my body tells me otherwise. I can't even walk for 15 minutes without feeling like I just got beat up like a punching bag. My neck has been stiff 24/7 since the accident. And worse of all, I'm not allowed to work out.

I just keep praying that this isn't permanent.

Facebook says you're around 20 miles from me right now. The temptation is strong - to want to see you, to want to drive out and meet you, to even just send a text your way.

If i'd only gathered up the courage to walk up to you last week. I miss you. I want to have more of a connection with you, something more than just you liking my status and me liking every other thing you post. I hope one day you could like more than just what I write.

Blogger App

I'm so glad to finally find an app for this! I'm hoping it's gna encourage me to blog more often since I've honestly been on a super long hiatus from here. Let's see how this works out :) Expect to see me here a little more.

I'm baaaaackkkk. Well I just need an outlet for now to let out all these that I've been feeling.

So... I met this pair of twins, lets say one's E and the other's A. So at first it was E that caught my attention, maybe it was because when I first met them it was her whom I got to talk to first. E seemed really nice, and I didn't really think about it until I started seeing them around more often. I thought to myself, "hey E seems really interesting and really nice"; I didn't really get a chance to talk to her twin A yet, but I really got the impression that E was a down-to-earth, nice girl.

Fast forward to my club's annual halloween event, I got pretty drunk before I even got to the event. I saw them sisters right when I got there though, and I really don't remember but I apparently took pictures with each of them during the span of the night. I took some pictures with them, but I have no recollection or memory whatsoever of even talking to either of them.

Fast forward again, to when I uploaded the pictures and there was this one particular picture of A and I which I thought was pretty cute, considering the fact that I was pretty drunk and it was taking in the bathroom. So that particular picture, I post up on Facebook and A comments on it with a, "girl we cute :)" and me being in LA that weekend decides to be flirty and reply back, "you read my mind pirate :)". That's where it ends for now...

Until I decided to attend a Gender & Sexuality Film event where they were playing a lesbian movie. I see the both of them there, and they were really nice, even asking me to sit with them and all. The movie ended pretty late and I knew my bus was gonna take awhile, but since another friend N was there too and he happened to be my neighbor he offered to give me a ride. At the time that he did so, the twins were there and since A was going home she insisted that she'd give me a ride instead since she had to go home to study, while E went along with N to have some boba.

On our walk to the car, and our car ride to my apartment, A and I had a pretty good talk together. Albeit short, i felt really comfortable talking to her considering I never really did talk to her before. When we got to my complex, we decided to visit her big sib who we chatted with for a bit. After, she gave me and him a hug before she left to study. I guess this is where I started crushing on A. But at the same time I was also pretty attracted to E. Seriously double trouble.

I have a feeling one of them isn't very straight. I'm not really sure which though. But that isn't important, they're both super duper nice even if they do look pretty intimidating. They both used to be basketballers (and good ones too, according to google) ((why do i always fall for ballers who look so masungit? lol)), they talk pretty different from what I'm familiar with, but that's cool. I gathered, and with the support of A's big sib, that they're both very family oriented, they love each other a lot, they're so down-to-earth, always down to study, chill, or party, and they've got their lives pretty much in order. I'm attracted to a lot of those good points.

But now, i'm seriously confused as to whom I like between them two. And i'm pretty bummed that i only met them now, now that i'm about to leave davis -.-

Hello again, it's you and me (dear blogger) ;)

Not going to stay here for long, but just an update!
100% alright now, it's time to close this chapter and start anew!
Till then :)

HAHAHA I'd post this on tumblr but this is far too much of a late reaction on my part since I'm watching GG a year or two late. BUT OMG they're having a threesome, and it's making me laugh myself silly! I mean c'mon, Vannessa, Dan, and Olivia (aka Hilary Duff?!?!). HAHAHAHA Vannessa and Olivia making me out just made me pause the whole show to come here and laugh about it. I think this may just be the best scene I've watched so far, all season.

Speaking of GG, i remember the last time I watched it, I had a crush on my very own version of Serena van der Woodsen. Although she isn't so much of a crush anymore, the real Serena in the show's still my one and only female celeb crush. :)

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Let's give this space a rest for a bit. In case you're looking for me, I'll be here :)

I guess life's been keeping me pretty busy this summer break to spare me some time to come here. My first week of break couldn't have been any better! Theme parks, friends, family, relatives, and a wedding! Awesome stuff - and things are only getting started! :)

Seven more weeks of fun before I kick start the last leg of my undergrad race. Seven more weeks of fun, fun, and more fuuuuun!

p/s: I've been sober for more than a week now. This is a sign of something good. I no longer need to rely on distracting myself with vices. (Although tomorrow night is Power Hour with well drinks going for a dollar each! A little intoxicated fun wouldn't hurt! :D)

It's officially summer time :)

I think I shall take a nap to get a good start with my break. Fun shall officially begin once I wake up!

A little bit stronger - Sara Evans

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

Getting along without you baby,
I'm better off without you baby,
How does it feel with out me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby.

Pink eye, headaches, and fever. Tonight's going to be tough, as I try to battle all the pains while trying to study for tomorrow's finals. This is the hardest night, but I'm determined to get past it and conquer tomorrow although I know that I'm due to repeat Genetics class in the Fall.

On the topic of being sick, I do miss the feeling of having someone take care of me. I don't necessarily need it, but it would be nice. I can't wait to move back home and have mommy pour that kind of attention on me again.

Random: I'd love myself a girl who can feel and look perfect without any make up on.

Two days. Two days that separates me from freedom. I've been thinking a lot lately, and I wish it could have been spent on thinking about school and my education but alas, I've been thinking about myself lately. About decisions, and happiness, and risks, and outcomes. I can't wait for these two days to be over so that I can freely think of my next step. Hopefully the few, short getaways that I'm going to have while on break, will help ease my tired mind from thinking.

p/s: Pink eye is not the deal. It's uncool and it hurts like a mother-fucking heartbreak.

Friends with benefits was cute. I could have watched it with csy last friday though, if Paolo didn't ask me for a ride to Berkeley -.-

She hugged me last night :D Not before she gave me one of her smiles, one of her rare smiles.
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I was on my iPod yesterday and certain songs came on which inspired me to come up with a mixtape of my past relationship. I listed all the songs that we had for each other, happy and sad, and I think they painted a pretty accurate outline of what the relationship had been. Here goes!

Ready for Nostalgia?

1. Chocolate High by India Arie
2. Falling for you by Colbie Caillat
3. Everything by Michael Buble
4. Freak Me by Silk
5. Gotta Go by Trey Songz
6. I Crave by Marc Dorsey
7. Meet Me Halfway by Black Eyed Peas
8. Stuck Like Glue by Sugarland
9. Love Rollercoaster by MIMS
10. I Was Made to Love You by Gerald Levert
11. Loving You Tonight by Andrew Allen
12. Someone You Used to Know by Zee Avi
13. I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat

(Bonus Song: Let's Just Fall in Love Again by Jason Castro)

What a rollercoaster of a playlist; maybe I'll burn myself a CD.

On my playlist: Tears Dry On Their Own - Amy Winehouse. (Rest In Peace.)

Last night was proof that I still have part of my charm despite my horrible weight gain. It's was awesome to have gone out and still be noticed by the people around you :) Castro's the place to be and I think I'll be frequenting the places there to acquaint myself with the LGBT. It was Tim and I

's first night out at the Castro, but it was pretty awesome despite it only being the two of us. We found ourselves dancing along with circles of strangers who we'd acquaint ourselves with after 10 or so minutes of dancing.

Quite disappointed with my shyness and lack of guts to dance with the ladies, and I think one of the girls was yearning to dance with me for the whole night. I also unintentionally cut her off at the end too when she passed by on her way out, when I waved and said goodbye in good gesture but cut her midway as she attempted to say something :/ Outside, when the night was over, Tim and I stepped out to walk around the block but instead we were stopped because someone started calling out my name (lol, no thanks to Tim who went around giving people my name -.-) It was snakebites girl, she said I made her night because I was cute (hahaha she has a husband) and she remembered my name (but neither Tim or I could remember hers :/) So we took pictures, and out came a group of Asian gays who wanted to take pictures with me too and tried to convince us to come back today and next week. It was quite entertaining cuz they were more interested in talking to me than to Tim (HAHAH!). What's with me and gay boys?! We managed to get untangled from them by saying a quick goodbye and disappearing into the alleys :D

Overall, good choice of club thanks to Tim. Though it was pretty small and they didn't serve AMFs, the dj was good with his music (it must have been due to the fact that we was in his underwear, which only covered the front of his bottoms) and the crowd was friendly. Next week we're picking another club to try! :D

Fastforward to Dennys where something funny happened, although I was more entertained by the drunk guy at the front who was being shoo-ed of by this lady. I thought a fight was gonna break out beside me! Oh! And how can I forget the lady who sat across from my booth, who was looking at me and saying "he's so cute!," she went on to compare me with her nephew who's in Afghanistan serving the military while repeating that i was cute while Tim tried to explain that I was female and all I could do was giggle, and her friend was embarrassed cuz she knew that I was female. Hahaha, quite a night!

And after all that, what better way to end it off by driving with moonscreen open at 4 in the morning blasting trance at max volume and having your side mirrors blurry from all the vibrations of the bass? :)

2 months.

I'm going strong.

I'm supposed to be sleeping right now since I have stupid Calculus class early later, but fuck that.

After tomorrow, I only have a week left before I start enjoying my summer BREAK! Hell yeah, I can totally call it a break, since all the other breaks I've had felt like they were just weekends. Although I've pretty much established that I'm going to be retaking Genetics, I'm not really dreading it so much. I'm just too excited to leave Davis and not have to come back for awhile. The only thing I'll be missing from summer school, are Tuesday bus rides home I guess, and maybe the late Monday or Tuesday nights that I hang out at csy's workplace. Aside from that, summer school can go suck it! Well, maybe Thirsty Thursday nights would be missed too. And definitely all my friends, but I know I'll come visit when there are events going on :)

Anyway, I was really happy yesterday because I wasn't expecting it, but I saw csy at the bus stop after classes. I got to stand beside her on the bus, lol! Next week's probably the last time I'm going to see her all summer since she's be flying back to HK/China, but it's cool. I'll probably drop in to see her next week.

The State Fair was fun today, we were a big group and even if we had trouble deciding on the things to do and places to go at the fair and after, I thoroughly enjoyed everyone's company. It was aweseome seeing Nate(s) too, plus Eilleen and Tyrone! Seems like the last time I saw them was way back during graduation. And even with them there, we were still incomplete; but it was super fun nonetheless :) Hopefully a reunion can happen soon and everyone can be there (with the exception of that jerk of course).

I should sleep.