And this is the part where it gets harder. The awkwardness. The avoidance. The suppression. I'll take the initiative to do all these, my friendship with you is more than anything I could ever ask for from you.

There's no denying that I am on the verge of falling in love with you. And it's starting to show - in the way I look at you as we're talking, in the way I light up and smile at you when I happen to bump into you or place myself so I would bump into you, in the way I so blatantly steal glances at you which I'm pretty sure you notice.

How long before the cat gets out of the bag? April marks six months of me thinking about you.

Where can you get days better than these? :)

School and my life seems like a really big bag of good vibes right now. I have sufficient time to do everything I need - I study every day, I get enough sleep, I have enough time and energy to walk back and forth from home to school - and everything I want - I have time to hang out and get to know friends I don't really know so well, and I'm in the right places to meet new people :) I'm even in the right places at the right times such that I get to see you at least three times a week because your class starts right after mine ends in the same classroom, and that I get to study where you intern at :)

I'm glowing like the beautiful sunshine today just because I saw you and you said I looked nice. Those comments and smiles of yours are battery packs that energize the life of me, and I look forward to seeing where this may or may not end up at (it doesn't matter, because as long as you're around you'll always make my day).

Can't wait to see you again tonight! :D

Who would have thought of a better way to start my Spring Quarter! Thanks big G up there :)

The drive from home was pretty somber given the fact that I started tearing right after I left home. I miss my family already. But lucky me, I decided to drop by Walmart! I had the most pleasant surprise, and I'm pretty sure it shown on my face when I came face to face with the one person I wanted to see most in school. Damn! What a damn pleasant way to start my quarter <3

Can't say I wasn't smiling ear to ear after I talked to her and her sister :)

On an entirely different note, I think my idea of moving to australia is becoming more and more entiscing as the days go by. I've even mentioned it to quite a lot of people already and I've been looking into universities over in Sydney and Perth. Looks like I need to do some uprooting and relocating again in the coming future.

I have a perfect picture in my head of how I'm going to spend my last 10 weeks in college. Let's hope I paint that picture accurately.

I hate careless drivers who rear end people.

I keep telling myself that it was a minor accident, but my body tells me otherwise. I can't even walk for 15 minutes without feeling like I just got beat up like a punching bag. My neck has been stiff 24/7 since the accident. And worse of all, I'm not allowed to work out.

I just keep praying that this isn't permanent.

Facebook says you're around 20 miles from me right now. The temptation is strong - to want to see you, to want to drive out and meet you, to even just send a text your way.

If i'd only gathered up the courage to walk up to you last week. I miss you. I want to have more of a connection with you, something more than just you liking my status and me liking every other thing you post. I hope one day you could like more than just what I write.

Blogger App

I'm so glad to finally find an app for this! I'm hoping it's gna encourage me to blog more often since I've honestly been on a super long hiatus from here. Let's see how this works out :) Expect to see me here a little more.

I'm baaaaackkkk. Well I just need an outlet for now to let out all these that I've been feeling.

So... I met this pair of twins, lets say one's E and the other's A. So at first it was E that caught my attention, maybe it was because when I first met them it was her whom I got to talk to first. E seemed really nice, and I didn't really think about it until I started seeing them around more often. I thought to myself, "hey E seems really interesting and really nice"; I didn't really get a chance to talk to her twin A yet, but I really got the impression that E was a down-to-earth, nice girl.

Fast forward to my club's annual halloween event, I got pretty drunk before I even got to the event. I saw them sisters right when I got there though, and I really don't remember but I apparently took pictures with each of them during the span of the night. I took some pictures with them, but I have no recollection or memory whatsoever of even talking to either of them.

Fast forward again, to when I uploaded the pictures and there was this one particular picture of A and I which I thought was pretty cute, considering the fact that I was pretty drunk and it was taking in the bathroom. So that particular picture, I post up on Facebook and A comments on it with a, "girl we cute :)" and me being in LA that weekend decides to be flirty and reply back, "you read my mind pirate :)". That's where it ends for now...

Until I decided to attend a Gender & Sexuality Film event where they were playing a lesbian movie. I see the both of them there, and they were really nice, even asking me to sit with them and all. The movie ended pretty late and I knew my bus was gonna take awhile, but since another friend N was there too and he happened to be my neighbor he offered to give me a ride. At the time that he did so, the twins were there and since A was going home she insisted that she'd give me a ride instead since she had to go home to study, while E went along with N to have some boba.

On our walk to the car, and our car ride to my apartment, A and I had a pretty good talk together. Albeit short, i felt really comfortable talking to her considering I never really did talk to her before. When we got to my complex, we decided to visit her big sib who we chatted with for a bit. After, she gave me and him a hug before she left to study. I guess this is where I started crushing on A. But at the same time I was also pretty attracted to E. Seriously double trouble.

I have a feeling one of them isn't very straight. I'm not really sure which though. But that isn't important, they're both super duper nice even if they do look pretty intimidating. They both used to be basketballers (and good ones too, according to google) ((why do i always fall for ballers who look so masungit? lol)), they talk pretty different from what I'm familiar with, but that's cool. I gathered, and with the support of A's big sib, that they're both very family oriented, they love each other a lot, they're so down-to-earth, always down to study, chill, or party, and they've got their lives pretty much in order. I'm attracted to a lot of those good points.

But now, i'm seriously confused as to whom I like between them two. And i'm pretty bummed that i only met them now, now that i'm about to leave davis -.-

Hello again, it's you and me (dear blogger) ;)

Not going to stay here for long, but just an update!
100% alright now, it's time to close this chapter and start anew!
Till then :)

HAHAHA I'd post this on tumblr but this is far too much of a late reaction on my part since I'm watching GG a year or two late. BUT OMG they're having a threesome, and it's making me laugh myself silly! I mean c'mon, Vannessa, Dan, and Olivia (aka Hilary Duff?!?!). HAHAHAHA Vannessa and Olivia making me out just made me pause the whole show to come here and laugh about it. I think this may just be the best scene I've watched so far, all season.

Speaking of GG, i remember the last time I watched it, I had a crush on my very own version of Serena van der Woodsen. Although she isn't so much of a crush anymore, the real Serena in the show's still my one and only female celeb crush. :)

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Let's give this space a rest for a bit. In case you're looking for me, I'll be here :)

I guess life's been keeping me pretty busy this summer break to spare me some time to come here. My first week of break couldn't have been any better! Theme parks, friends, family, relatives, and a wedding! Awesome stuff - and things are only getting started! :)

Seven more weeks of fun before I kick start the last leg of my undergrad race. Seven more weeks of fun, fun, and more fuuuuun!

p/s: I've been sober for more than a week now. This is a sign of something good. I no longer need to rely on distracting myself with vices. (Although tomorrow night is Power Hour with well drinks going for a dollar each! A little intoxicated fun wouldn't hurt! :D)

It's officially summer time :)

I think I shall take a nap to get a good start with my break. Fun shall officially begin once I wake up!

A little bit stronger - Sara Evans

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around.
And ohhh
I'm done thinking, that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same,
but I'm telling myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

Getting along without you baby,
I'm better off without you baby,
How does it feel with out me baby?
I'm getting stronger without you baby.

Pink eye, headaches, and fever. Tonight's going to be tough, as I try to battle all the pains while trying to study for tomorrow's finals. This is the hardest night, but I'm determined to get past it and conquer tomorrow although I know that I'm due to repeat Genetics class in the Fall.

On the topic of being sick, I do miss the feeling of having someone take care of me. I don't necessarily need it, but it would be nice. I can't wait to move back home and have mommy pour that kind of attention on me again.

Random: I'd love myself a girl who can feel and look perfect without any make up on.

Two days. Two days that separates me from freedom. I've been thinking a lot lately, and I wish it could have been spent on thinking about school and my education but alas, I've been thinking about myself lately. About decisions, and happiness, and risks, and outcomes. I can't wait for these two days to be over so that I can freely think of my next step. Hopefully the few, short getaways that I'm going to have while on break, will help ease my tired mind from thinking.

p/s: Pink eye is not the deal. It's uncool and it hurts like a mother-fucking heartbreak.

Friends with benefits was cute. I could have watched it with csy last friday though, if Paolo didn't ask me for a ride to Berkeley -.-